Reality Check

So let's face it. Some of us just were not meant to be skinny. Whether it's environment, natural structure, or our family genes, those few extra pounds are just not coming off. I personally blame my family history. Most everyone in my family was overweight, has been overweight, or is overweight. And we're short too. That makes it so much easier. Not.
I fight it everyday. I go to the gym every day, eat healthy food, and dance or teach as much as I can. Though as hard as I try to keep my weight down, it just will not happen. Now of course I realize that muscle mass weighs more than fat, which is why I weigh as much as a person who may appear to be bigger than I am. That still does not make me feel better. So it is a constant battle between my body and the gym, which I am not prepared to give up just yet. But c'mon, it still sucks to see people who can eat anything and not gain an ounce.
Although some of my features may make me unhappy, I am not about to go to extremes to get my ideal body. As a dancer, my mother's fear was that I could develop an eating disorder or low self-esteem. Of course, once she understood me throughout my teenage years she could see that I would never develop something such as anorexia because a) it is very unhealthy and dangerous and, b) i love food WAY too much. And seriously, who likes a girl without any curves? A little junk in the trunk will not do any harm, especially if most of it is muscle. Yet I still do not understand how I have the biggest butt in the family when no one else displays such a feature...
The bottom line is, as long as I am healthy, I should be happy. Ideally.

And How Do You Classify Dance?

I remember one day in Dance on Camera class this past semester, someone asked, "How do you define dance." As if it were that simple. Does it need a definition? Although I could say it truly depends on your own experience and meaning, not everyone can be credible in defining what they think dance is-in the artistic world. To me, dance is movement with meaning behind it. Not necessarily a story, but an intention or a feeling. You do it for a reason no matter how insignificant. The other day I broke out into arabesque turns on my living room floor because I felt inspired to dance and it just came naturally. One can dance to be silly, to be professional, because they're hurt, happy, frightened or because something happened. Dance is a broad concept, which makes it hard to define. So I leave it open to you. What is dance to you?

I leave you with a few photos of this past semester's dance theater piece rehearsal...it was about childhood and not the ordinary college dance performance..some considered it not to be dance...hm.

Time for a change

No longer can I sit around and wait for something to come to me. Yes, I am a 19-year old girl with time on her hands, but with 4-dollar gas I am confined to my living quarters. This is a new beginning. A place to share my world of dance, art, love, education, creativity, curiosity, and spontanaeity. Enjoy, comment, and listen to what I give to you.